My Divine healings
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In 2008-2009 I almost died from severe pancreatitis, adrenal gland failure, and inability to digest anything, followed by severe anxiety, depression, and insomnia. I lost 45 lbs within a month, falling to a dangerous 140 lbs (for 6’ 1” height), having to wear ski gloves because my hands were cold as ice, and my skin turned a deathly grey. I was a real mess! I went to 2 primary care doctors, a gastro-intestinal, an endocrine/hormonal, and a urology specialist. I took tons of tests and tons of meds for a year, with very little improvement. The stress of the medical system, its bills, and inability to work just compounded the problem. However, what I learned during this time and later during many other medical challenges is powerful and can give you enabling-power over your situation also!
On 8/28/2008 when I watched “The Passion of the Christ” by Mel Gibson alone in my front room. I clearly saw the last 15 years of my life as a wasteful indulgence of self-centered sin that led me nowhere and I couldn’t imagine the next year, let alone 5 years, being the same. I clearly saw my desperate need to be entirely healed physically, emotionally, and spiritually from myself. I clearly saw Christ on the cross as my only hope – I had tried everything and everybody else! In many ways I was experiencing the process of salvation, the Greek meaning to be “delivered, rescued, and restored to wholeness.” I told the Lord I wanted nothing to do with my past and just wanted to come home. Suddenly I was so thirsty and got up to go to the kitchen for some water and immediately walked into pure, unconditional-love, completely forgiving and accepting of me, wrapping itself all around me as if I were being hugged by pure unconditional-love. It was so overwhelming I couldn’t even stand, so I fell to me knees and just wept profusely with pure joy – I was home! I could have stayed there forever – nothing else mattered! This is when my healing began. Many life-long addictions just faded away – I felt like I had been released from a long prison sentence! I felt so unconditionally-loved, so full of joy, so at peace, and I just wanted to remain in this.
In 6/2009, I met Frank Kemberling at Freedom Fellowship church by recommendation of a friend, and he immediately prayed over me “in the name/authority of Jesus” for healing of horrible sciatica I had been experiencing for 6 days from driving a moving van to Spokane, Washington for a friend and then my travels throughout Oregon. I never believed or had seen miraculous healing, but in 5 minutes the searing pain was gone! After a day, I went into near shock that this had happened to me, but I still didn’t understand how. In 10/2009, I blew out of his church after service to get Ibuprofen for a terrible migraine I was getting from the meds I was still on from my insomnia. Frank chased after me and in 30 seconds of prayer “in the name/authority of Jesus,” it completely disappeared. I just couldn’t process this! From then on, I asked many questions and started reading about why divine healing works. In 12/2009, after 10 days of a wrenched back, I embarrassingly went back to Frank for healing, and he prayed but nothing immediately happened, which really bummed me out, but I got my first prophetic word spoken to me, “God rewards those who earnestly seek Him” and was told to read Hebrews 11. Later that afternoon during a drum lesson that normally would kill a wrenched back, I suddenly realized I was pain-free. This really freaked me out!
This is what Frank told me: He had learned how to do this from seeing Jesus work miraculously through him for so many years during his jail and street ministries. He insisted it wasn’t a special grace-gift just to him and that anybody could have this happen through them when they chose to have trusting-relying-faith in God’s promises despite their own beliefs or other men’s beliefs, and instead placing their trust in “the name of Jesus” to do this. That sounded like a magic formula, but my research showed that “in the name of” was a common phrase of the Roman world meaning “with the authority of,” as if that person was standing there – sort of like an officer nowadays yelling, “Stop in the name of the law.” So, healing “in the name of Jesus” meant trusting that He was right there doing it Himself, since God the Father had given all authority in heaven and earth to His Son, in order to honor the Son for His sacrifice on the cross for our salvation (a) – our reconciliation to God and restoration to wholeness! <Notes> a) Matthew 28:18.
Near the end of 2010, I was still opening up 5 digestive enzyme capsules and mixing them with my food just to digest it, based on what the doctors and all my reading had advised. But one morning I heard God saying, “You don’t need to do this – 1 or 2 whole capsules is enough” – a thought that was totally illogical. It was amazing that this worked just fine! And then 2-3 weeks later, while preparing a meal, I got trusting-relying-faith that “You don’t need them at all!” I went to say “Thank You for my food,” and it kept coming out of my mouth, “I trust you for my food.” Freaky! And this Voice was right – I was able to eat my meals just fine without them. The Son was setting me free – the Son is “The Truth that sets men free” (a)! “The Truth” absolutely is not the OT/Covenant which essentially represents the Torah Law of conditional-favor of Moses, “for the Torah Law of conditional-favor was given through Moses, but The Unconditional-Favor-of-Grace and The Truth came into existence through Jesus Christ” (b). Nor is the “logos gospel message of The Truth” just gnosis info-knowledge about Jesus or a how to live practical Christianity – it’s not even the NT. The logos gospel message of The Truth is the living person of Jesus Christ, the Logos of God who fully communicates God, the Father – see Identity. What doctors, websites, and books was telling me was “the truth” for pancreatitis victims – that we need to open lots of digestive enzyme capsules up and thoroughly mix with the food in order to relieve pressure on the weak pancreas – was absolutely not “The Truth” because it kept me enslaved to this costly and cumbersome practice! I was not “set free by this truth” at all! <Notes> a) John 14:6, 8:30-32, b) John 1:17.
Near the end of 2011, I was still hooked on the 5 meds the doctors had given me for my insomnia, so my body could heal – one was a narcotic! They were expensive and a huge hassle to take – a 30 minute process of phrasing them in before every night’s sleep! But I was a slave to them! Then one night in December as I was holding one bottle to call in for a refill, I heard a Voice in my head say, “You know you don’t have to do this anymore. It’s your choice.” That was what I heard 2 months earlier when He told me that my Buddhist, chain-smoking friend at Starbuck’s was going to be freed by the Lord Jesus. I had told my buddy I had heard this; he laughed and said he didn’t believe because he was a Buddhist; and I said it didn’t matter because The Unconditional-Love of Jesus was going to set him free because He told me so! Two weeks later, he ran up to me to say that 3 days earlier he had heard a Voice tell him as he went to light up for the umpteenth time that day: “You know you don’t have to do this anymore. It’s your choice.” It freaked him out – he just stared at his cigarette, and found himself saying, “You’re right.” He had tried many times to quit – all the Buddhist meditation had failed – but now the desire had just left him. He had been set free without any withdrawal symptoms! He told me that he had since downloaded a bible app and was devouring the NT. He had found trusting-relying-faith in the Lord’s voice! Now I was hearing that same Voice about my pill bottle, and I battled for 10 minutes with the so-called “truth” the doctors had convinced me of. Every night I was desperate for sleep to heal, but now I found trusting-relying-faith in hearing the Lord’s Voice! With one pill left, I said “Yes” to the Lord, left it in the bottle, threw it far from my bed, and put my phone down! I slept just fine and woke up fresh.
Over the coming months, I got more “nudgings” from the Lord to take other obedient steps of faith – this is the meaning of Romans 1:17 “the righteous shall live by faith to faith” citing Habakkuk 2:4. I reduced dosages of one medication after another until finally I was free from the four other sleep meds! The doctors had warned me of the consequences of reducing too fast, but the Lord told me when to take each step and each was a success. Was it easy? No way! Each step was met with great fear, fear that I would screw up my sleep and my healing. I wrestled through many tossing nights, also speaking Psalms 23, “He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside still waters” against the enemy that would destroy my sleep. It seems like the battles would never end. However, the Lord told me many things to help me sleep!
“Trusting-relying-faith comes from hearing, hearing the directly-spoken/heard prophetic rhema of Christ” (a) – this has nothing to do with reading the bible or even hearing a sermon preached by a pastor! I’ve done 6 month bible studies that produced no results, but one directly-spoken/heard prophetic rhema word from Jesus solves the problem! Jesus said, “My sheep hear My Voice, and they follow Me” (b). We must diligently seek the Lord in proseuche conversational-prayer until we hear His Voice, and then do what He says! <Notes> a) Romans 10:17, b) John 10:27.
What do the doctors really know anyway compared to the Creator of our bodies? “I am fearfully and wonderfully made” (a). The Lord Jesus sets men free – not a medical system that perpetuates itself on the profits of keeping people confused (b) and sick (c)! In fact, my last primary doctor in 2010 was a Christian woman, Rachael Gordon, who prayed for my healing, admitting that “the medical-insurance system was riddled with failure and it would take the Lord to navigate me toward healing.” She and her partner dedicated their practice to make a dent in undoing this! She got me heading in the right direction by taking baby steps. The Lord had told me in a proseuche conversational-prayer walk to trust her when my lapsed-Jewish doctor had been dropped by my insurance provider – he and his inept staff had done me so much harm, so I was grateful when he was dropped! The Lord also led me to a Christian acupuncturist, Dr. Reggie Stout, who stuck hundreds of pins into me, which radically accelerated the healing of my nervous system, pancreas, and adrenals. The Lord showed me a very important thing Paul said, “Let God be true but every man a liar” (d). <Notes> a) Psalms 139:14, b) 1 study or book contradicts another, c) 1 pill or operation causes another, d) Romans 3:4.
Almost everybody in this world is programmed by what they believe is “the truth,” and a lot of people make their living perpetuating it, but it may very well be “a lie” and they are simply deceived or purposely deceiving others for personal gain. Oftentimes, you find these practitioners of “the truth” are actually haters of God, and haters of Christ, so it’s very likely they are unknowingly doing the work of God’s enemy! Jesus said, “Satan is the father of lies, an in him there is no truth” (a). That’s why it’s imperative that we “seek the Lord diligently (b), as you would look for missing money (c), to call upon the Lord from a pure/single-minded heart (d), to hear from His Holy Spirit exactly what ‘the truth’ is, for only The Truth will set you free!” Jesus said, the Holy Spirit, His very nature, “will guide you into ALL the truth” (e) and “teach you ALL things” (f), and “teach you about EVERYTHING, so that you have absolutely in fact no need of anyone else to teach you” (g), for there is “only one teacher and you are all brothers” (h). <Notes> a) John 8:44, b) Acts 15:17, c) Luke 15:8, d) 2 Timothy 2:22, e) John 16:13, f) John 14:26, g) 1 John 2:27, h) Matthew 23:8 – see Teach One Another – BT10.
It takes enormous bravery to trust that Jesus is The Truth, the very Logos Word/Message communication of God, God’s very logos gospel message of The Truth to mankind, and that what He says is “true/trustworthy, and not a lie” (a), regardless of what others say. There are so many verses in the OT and NT that simply tell us to place our trusting-relying-faith in the Messiah to “deliver us from the evil [one]” (b), just as Jesus said so often: “Come to Me that you may have rest and zoe genuine-life” (c)! It takes bravery in the face of pain, difficulty, doubt, and fear to still choose to push past these voices and take obedient steps of faith to “routinely ask, seek, watch, and knock” to akouo “hear/listen to understand” for the Voice of Jesus. That’s really the essence of what the NT calls proseuche conversational-prayer – it’s not just telling God what we want as is the monologue of deesis supplication. <Notes> a) 1 John 2:27, b) Matthew 6:13, c) Matthew 11:28; John 5:40, 7:37.
I’ve had many amazing healings to confirm what God started way back in 2008! For example, I had fallen off a ladder and really messed up my left leg, and limped around for a long time. While waiting 20 minutes on Easter for communion to finish at a very liberal Episcopalian Church – far from my doctrinal beliefs – I envisioned the Lord’s blood sacrifice on the cross streaming through my body and healing all the ligaments, bones, and muscles that were keeping me from walking. That day after lunch I felt so good I went to Sabino Canyon, overwhelmed by the presence of God with every amazingly good step, tears of joy and praising non-stop, I not only walked 3.5 miles up, but I ran 3.5 miles down. I was completely healed! The Lord’s Supper can heal you – even in a church that is ritualistic and doesn’t necessarily believe in modern, charismatic healing!
The Lord has shown me through many verses, dreams, visions, and proseuche conversational-prayer messages that “The Truth” that has helped set me free, that continues to set me free, I believe could do the same for you. This morning while proseuchomai conversationally-praying for my dad’s healing, the Lord said, “10,000 pleas for healing really aren’t necessary, because I’ve already said ‘Yes’ on the cross – I came to destroy the works of the devil, to heal everybody that comes to Me. My answer is always ‘Yes’ because that’s what My love would always say. I never turn anyone away. I came to bring My Kingdom to earth and it is advancing. But you, you stand firm against the enemy. Do war! Fight!” But, I said, “Who am I to resist the devil that he would flee from me, like James 4:7 says?” He said, “Lock your leg; face your enemy with the shield of trusting-relying-faith – fight, fight, fight!” But I said, “Who am I to fight against Satan or one of his powerful angels – so many who slay mankind?” Then I saw the 300 Greek Spartans, locking their shields as one, locking their back legs, digging their heals in, and quickly jabbing their spears and swords through quick openings they would make in their combined shield, killing one Persian after another for days until the Greek army came to defeat the Persian army! I asked, “What is my sword or spear that could defeat an angel?” The Lord said, “The name of Jesus!” He has all authority (a), and so what He says has all authority – Jesus came to destroy the works of the devil (b). Then God showed me stabbing the enemy with the “Directly-spoken/heard prophetic rhema of God.” In the Greek, this is actually the “sword of the Spirit” that is part of “putting on the whole armor of God so that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil, to be able to withstand the evil day, and having done all, to be found standing firm” (c). <Notes> a) Matthew 28:18, b) Hebrews 2:14; 1 John 3:8, c) Ephesians 6:11-17.
This has nothing to do with quoting bible verses against Satan – written logos messages are never directly-spoken/heard prophetic rhema words! This is about “living by every directly-spoken/heard prophetic rhema that comes from the mouth of God” (a). Nothing can withstand what Jesus tells you, not even the devil, his angels, or his demons! “Back, back, back in the name of Jesus!” Concerning OT Torah Law of conditional-favor of obedience to commandments to be “more right with God or pleasing to God,” Paul says: “For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery” (b). Instead, Peter says “Stand firm in the unconditional-favor-of-grace of God that is true” (c). Paul says: “Stand fast through trusting-relying-faith” and “stand firm in the trusting-relying-faith” (d). Paul says, “Stand firm in the Lord” (e), “standing fast in the Lord” (f). Jesus, Jesus, Jesus is our weapon – not rules of obedience! Don’t you see: “The Lord saves not with [physical] sword or spear – for the battle is the Lord’s, and He will give you (the enemy) in our hand” (g). <Notes> a) Matthew 4:4 citing Deuteronomy 8:3, b) Galatians 5:1, c) 1 Peter 5:12, d) Romans 11:20; 1 Corinthians 16:13; 2 Corinthians 1:24, e) Philippians 4:1, f) 1 Thessalonians 3:8, g) 1 Samuel 17:47.
700 years before Christ, the prophet Isaiah was given a vision of the Messiah as: “a man of sorrows and intimately acquainted with pain and suffering . . . For sure, He has already lifted up (a) off us the burden of all our sicknesses (b); He has already taken and carried away ALL our pain and suffering (c) . . . He was pierced for our transgressions; He was beaten and bruised for our sins; The punishment that we deserved was instead carried out on Him for our peace with God. And by the cutting blows that tore His flesh into pieces, we were already healed (d). Our “tear” with God has ALREADY been “mended” by Jesus, and the “tears” within us (e) and between us and others (relationally) have ALREADY been “mended” by Jesus. The question Jesus asks is whether you’ll allow Him to put your “torn pieces” back together and “mend” you back together? A gift is not benefited from unless it is accepted. A power tool can’t accomplish its task unless it is used! <Notes> a) a term for crucifixion, b) “torn parts”, c) “anguish”, d) “mended back into a whole”, e) physically, mentally, and emotionally.
The Lord Jesus, the Messiah, came to restore all things: “to set the captives free, to be a great Light to those who live in the shadows of death” (a). That is why EVERYBODY that came to Him was immediately healed of ALL their diseases (b), and this was “normal Christianity” for the early Church (c)! That’s why everyone who comes to Him even now by His Holy Spirit will be healed! He is the Author of life, whom we all should seek. He also uses everything and everybody else at His disposal to bring healing and health back to His beloved creation, man. He will often use a believer, through the laying on of hands, to heal another, further confirming logos gospel message of The Truth, just as He promised (d). He will also use all the expertise of your doctors, even despite themselves. Will you trust Him to use everything at His disposal? <Notes> a) Luke 4:18 citing Isaiah 61:1-2, b) Matthew 4:24, 8:16, 12:15; Luke 4:40, 6:19, c) Acts 5:16, d) Mark 16:17-20.
The Father of every good grace-gift from above (a) does everything from Himself and through Himself by the enabling-power of His Holy Spirit, and He always does it for His own glory (b) – His own pleasure, benefit, and magnificent purposes – and according to His own nature, which is infinite, pure, unconditional-love (c). If you are seek healing of your body without recognizing, acknowledging, and trusting in the One who gives life and healing, then you are essentially putting your trusting-relying-faith in yourself or other men. This misplaced trusting-relying-faith will do you no good no matter how hard you believe. Trusting-relying-faith in itself does nothing. <Notes> a) James 1:17, b) Romans 11:36, c) 1 John 4:8; Galatians 5:22.
It’s not what you know, but Who you know that counts! Knowing the Lord is zoe genuine-life Everlasting. Not only is misplaced trusting-relying-faith or knowledge pointless and ineffective, it opposes the purposes of God, who does all things for His own glory. You will be fighting against God – pushing against an immovable wall – the very One who is your only real hope for healing and zoe genuine-life. It is wiser to declare as King David did in Psalms 103:1-5: “Bless the Lord, O my soul and all that is within me, bless His Holy Name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits: Who forgives all your sin, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from destruction, who crowns you with unconditionally-loving kindness and tender mercies, who satisfies your mouth with good that your youth is renewed like the eagle.”